Playing it Safe vs Taking Risks: Fighting the Fear
A few weeks ago when I was in my home state my father was kind enough to drive me to a friend’s birthday party dinner about an hour away. As he drove me to this party (which, by the way, was a dinner...
View ArticleBecoming an Executive Malfunctioning
It’s a rough transition from individual contributor to executive, especially for someone with ADHD. While I’ve gotten to the point in life where I value my innate abilities, I also acknowledge that...
View ArticleThe Challenge Meter
Remember when life was all about getting good grades? When, generally speaking, there were right and wrong answers, and either you solved for X or you didn’t? Ah, how I failed to appreciate those days,...
View ArticleCombating Perfectionism to Survive
My childhood was spent painting. I learned early on that mussing around too much with color on top of color eventually turned a beautiful painting brown, and the only way to fix this horror was to let...
View ArticleTime After Time After Time
Our childhood is like the first lift of a roller coaster, the very first time you experience a thrill ride of this scale. It takes what seems like forever to get to the top. While it’s scary, you’re...
View ArticleWhere’s the Drug to Forget Who You Were to Become Who You Are
I don’t have many happy memories of childhood. The memories I do have seem to jump from one moment of being yelled at or hit by my father to being bullied in school. Fourth grade. Dad is pissed I am...
View ArticleHitting the Wall Hard
There are things one can learn to do, and then there are things ones naturally abilities, or lack there of, limit them from doing. Today, I feel incredibly lost, afraid, and unsure of my next steps. I...
View ArticleNothing Works Out Like You’ve Planned
The word of the day is “resilience” – meaning dealing with the shit life throws your way, because no matter your best efforts the, ahem, shit will be thrown. Being able to handle whatever the day has...
View ArticleMore Thoughts on Ambition, Depression, and An Otherwise Ambivalent Life
When I was a child, I was remarkably judgmental. My parents raised me as such. For them, having grown up in households with parents who were not college educated, who were bluecollar workers or clergy,...
View ArticleWhen “I Can’t” is a Fair Assessment of the Situation
They say that the most productive people in the world don’t have the word’s “I can’t” in their vocabulary. When they’re asked to jump, they don’t even ask, “how high,” they just jump as high as they...
View ArticleI Don’t Give A Fuck / I Give All the Fucks
Time continues drifting onward so quickly I can barely catch by breath. The sea of life seems to flow constantly at different speeds so that it spins you around when you stop to try to follow it in a...
View ArticleAs I sat on the baggage claim floor…
Some people hit rock bottom when they’ve found their addiction to drugs or sex or alcohol has pushed them to a point where there are only two options left — just about cold turkey or their own demise....
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Hello 2016! A Toast to an Amazing, Productive, Healthy, and Sane Year
I’ll admit it, 2015 was rough. With my long commute to and from work, my sanity and health sank to perhaps an all-time low. Although I achieved networth growth over the year, it wasn’t nearly as much...
View ArticlePanic is My Default Mode: Life with Anxiety
Logically, I know 99% of my anxiety is completely unnecessary. But in 32 years of walking this earth, it’s just gotten worse. This crippling sense of constant panic keeps me from finishing projects and...
View ArticleThe Point When Your Dream Ends and Someone Else’s Begins
How in one breath can reality shift from a romanticized daydream of being a somebody who creates to success begin defined by job title, income, and home furnishings? Of course, this didn’t all happen...
View ArticleWaking Up from The American Dream
Today, we received notice for our annual lease renewal. Our rent will be increasing $170 a month to a total steal of $2465 for a one bedroom apartment, not including any utilities. If we lived in the...
View ArticleThe Vicious Cycle of My Adult Professional Life
One of my longtime readers Taylor Lee left a comment that said what most people in my life tell me over and over again — Not to be harsh, but I feel like you cycle through the same issues over and over...
View ArticleWhen It All Adds Up: Am I Autistic?
In the course of my mental health history, I’ve been diagnosed with, in no particular order, major depression, bipolar II, generalized anxiety, social anxiety, ADHD and, as I aged out of hyperactivity,...
View ArticleThe High Cost of Mental Illness
Mental Illness is a touchy subject – unlike, say, cancer or diabetes, it isn’t something that can be diagnosed via blood tests or biopsies. And everyone suffers some amount of anxiety and depression...
View ArticleFinding My Motivation: ADHD, Anxiety, Depression and Sustainable Productivity
There are times in my life when I’m hyper-productive and hyper-focused, as they call it in ADHD speak. I stay up all night and re-build my entire blog or write 10 blog posts to fill the next month of...
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